myself.........

I start to feel like I can’t maintain the facade any longer,

that I may just start to show through.

And I wish I knew what was wrong.

Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is.

I don’t know.

Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy,

the need to put a happy face on sorrow,

the need to keep on

keeping on?...

I don’t know the answer,

I know only that I can’t.

I don't want any more vicissitudes,

I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff.

I just want out.

I’ve had it.

I am so tired.

Maybe this is a true of me

But I felt stupid,

Making the mistake

Again &; again..

What can i do??

To say A SORRY

Is the end of it..

I am eighteen and I am already exhausted.