Why don't you love me?

See I can't wake up I'm living a nightmare

That keeps playing over again

Locked in a room so hung up on you

And you're cool with just being friends

Left on the sidelines

Stuck at a red light

Waiting for my time

And I can't see

Why don't you love me?

Touch me, tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe

And why don't you love me baby?

Open up your heart tonight

'cause I could be all that you need

Why don't you love me?

Why don't you love me?

See I'm just too scared to tell you the truth

Cause my heart ache can't take anymore

Broken and bruised longing for you

And I don't know what I'm waiting for

Left on the sidelines

Stuck at a red light

Waiting for my time

So just tell me

Why don't you love me?

Touch me, tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe

And why don't you love me baby?

Open up your heart tonight

I could be all that you need

Why don't you love me?

Why don't you love me?

Why don't you give me a reason?

Please tell me the truth

You know that I'll keep believing

Till I'm with you

Why don't you love me?

Kiss me, I could feel your heart tonight

It's killing me so

Why don't you love me?

Touch me, tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe

And why don't you love me baby?

Open up your heart tonight

I could be all that you need

Why don't you love me?

Why don't you love me?

Why don't you love me?

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You ask me if I love you

And I choke on my reply

I'd rather hurt you honestly

Than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you

On what you say or do?

I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy

Leaves me battling with my pride

But through the insecurity

Some tenderness survives

I'm just another writer

Still trapped within my truth

A hesitant prize fighter

Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you

And drive you to your knees

At times I'd like to break through

And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you

And I know how hard you've tried

I've watched while love commands you

And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters

Still searching for a friend

A brother or a sister

But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Thoughts

I never thought there would be the day that I would hate someone so bad that I wished they were dead before me. Too bad that there is nothing I can do about it now I can't take back my anger or frustration. They say that years of dwelling on the past is like wasting away what you have in front of you, but I rarely think about how these people selfishly ruined my life and left me in ruins.  It only frustrates me when I look back so I look forward to the day where I see them despised. 

171112 : Premier Anniversaire

A very typical Saturday morning for me until I received a delivery surprise gift. A bouquet of flowers was delivered right in front of my house gate all the way from UK by someone special (J). It was really surprised because I never thought that he will remember the date that we met each other or most probably i should said, BUMPED or KNOCKED into each other... haha! ( How i met him , funniest and most dramatic scenario ever).    

Truly speaking, he is the only one who guessed accurately about my favorite types of flower. lol! 

In the bouquet of flowers, there are  12 x Yellow Roses (favorite) , 5 x Lily, 8 x Daisy, Statice & Lavender ( favorite). Sadly , M'sia florist seldom sells or orders Peonies, Ranunculus or Tulips.. they are my favorites too.

J, Thank You so much for the bouquet of flowers & lovely e-mails.

"xoxo"

Here's Unfold 2

Somehow after watching this video above it links me to watch this video below: 

Stranger, Again

I think this's the 6th times watching this video, but a friend of mine told me that he watched 8 times straight, again and again. Lol!